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Saturday, April 3, 2010

The Big 5 0!!!

Next week I will be 50. Fifty. No matter which way it’s written it still looks the same.

I’m not scared or depressed or anxious about achieving this milestone. Possibly because my anxiety at the moment is being all used up worrying whether I will get my next assignment done and in on time!

Actually I feel pretty good. I definitely feel more like a teenager than a middle aged woman. I still dance to video hits on the TV and I sing along too. Given the choice, I would much rather stay up all night and sleep in all day. Unfortunately the working world doesn’t quite approve of this schedule, so I’ve had to conform.

I’m fairly healthy too. I’m in nearly as good a shape as I was at 40. I eat well, I do weights three times a week and I try to fit in ten minute bursts of cardio when I can. I fit into jeans I haven’t worn for a year. OK, so the chilli chips and chocolate this weekend weren’t the best options, but a girl needs something to get her through a 2500 word English assignment!

The difference I do feel is to do with mortality. Suddenly, I realise I don’t have unlimited time left to do the things I want to do. When am I ever going to get the money to travel the world? Or to buy my own home?

I have a “bucket list” in my head. Things I’ve been meaning to do for awhile. The time has come to write them down and turn them into goals. Let’s see how many I can achieve before the sand has run through the hour glass and my time is up.


  1. You're assume. I honestly assumed you were in your 20's or 30's from your picture. CONGRATULATIONS on a new and exciting upcoming chapter.
    Keep dancing!

  2. Robyn - I think you're my new best friend!!! Thank you!

  3. *Suddenly, I realise I don’t have unlimited time left to do the things I want to do*
    That sentence freaked me out.
    I know this other woman, and she's about 65. She was very very active till about January. I remember her telling me that she did all the stuff she did and rode her scooter so fast because she has limited time left in the world to do all the stuff she wants to do. She's fallen a little ill recently and slowed down considerably. Very scary to see things like this happen.

  4. you are wonderful, beautiful, smart and have lots and lots of naughty and nice things to look forward to!!!!!

  5. I'll welcome you to the club with open arms. You are entering it with the right attitude! There is nothing you can't do if you want it bad enough, so enjoy fulfilling your "bucket list". I look forward to seeing you in the future!

  6. You have a TON of time. Think about it. If you live to be 80 and healthy, that is 30 years from now! 30 years is a long time!!!

    Set your goals - you will do it!!

  7. Good for you! Have fun working towards your goals.

  8. I'm still a few years away from the big 5 oh (that looks the same, too, doesn't it). But I remember it hitting me in my late 30s that I'll never have time to do everything I want to do, (at least not here on this Earth), not that I have/had any big goals in mind. It took me awhile to get over that feeling, but I did.

    Let us know how you celebrate your big day.

  9. 25 - I guess it happens all the time. We can just live life to the fullest when we can.
    Seductress - you are too sweet!
    Carol - thank you! You are on my bucket list for sure.
    Girl Next Door - very true - or I could be run over by a bus! lol
    donut girl - I will!
    Brenda - don't lose all your big goals - they give you something to look forward to!